I have decided to start a new blog. A private by invite only blog.

If you would like to be added to the list - here's what you gotta do - email me your address, along with your blog.
In exchange I will become loyal to your blogs and yours only. Yes - this may upset the lurkers, but I was thinking at least I could be a whole lot more personal and blog alot more often and not worry. I never did worry really - but I think its a nicer feeling knowing who's reading my thoughts - and also that I can return the favor to you.

Yes - I may only get 4 loyal readers - or maybe 40. That's fine by me. Somedays it would be nice if I could just blog and not have anyone read it. But I have become attached to several of you guys and I am not ready to let that go.

So - drop me a note. Along with your email and blog address. That's what gets you in! Thanks so very much for your kind words and comments in the past. You guys have gotten me thru some tough times.

People asked what the meaning of the apple is. That's a tough one to answer without me totally telling you my name. Let's just say that its very significant to me. My husband does love it. He says that I can have 100 tattoos, just as long as I don't write his name on me. That's where he draws the line. I enjoy tattoos and people wonder why. I feel that the 4 that I have kinda tell a story of where I have been and whats happened in my life. It's not a decision that is made without giving thought to it - I almost over think and over plan each tattoo. But I am happy to have each and every one - and 35 years from now I will be able to look back and tell may stories. I have only one life and I want to enjoy it.

Diet - not good. Have not weighed in for a long time. I just have not given it the focus that I should. I feel that I have abandoned my blog and I am sorry about that. I am just so busy with life, love, and work that I just don't check in as often as I should. There are several blogger friends that have taken the extra time to drop me an email - please do - I would love to keep in touch with anyone that wants to share on a more personal level. My address is posted on the side here - I just want you all to know that I miss my blog and miss all of you guys, but I don't make the time as I should! Do take care.

Yup. An apple. Pain? Yeah, some.
Happy? Yup, lots.

For those in the world that don't have the crappy reality tv that we do. Check this out.
Its causing quite a buzz here in North America.

I am now on holidays for a week. Really excited about that. Hubby is going out of town for the same time - so I decided to book holidays and enjoy myself. My birds were fighting tonight so I decided to move the babies into their own cage. They handled it very well and I was surprised at how easy it was to catch them and handle them. Their little hearts were beating a mile a minute though. Only got shit on once - nice.

Having to pack husband's suitcase for his trip. The gals at work laugh at me when I told them I had to do that. But I have a feeling that hubby would forget to take a tooth brush if it wasn't for me. It's hard to believe that grown men from all over Canada get together to race these silly cars. But its okay - my brother is going with hubby and they will have a blast. Something that they did last year as well.

This is a picture of some of the guys and their toys. Hubby is taking the picture. But it just goes to show that men never outgrow their toys. Makes me laugh. I am glad that my hubby has a hobby and I am really happy that he's such good friend with my brother. Food for thought though - each one of those toys costs about $1500 - $2500. Not a toy for all.

Cheers everyone.

There is a game show on TV right now called "Moment of Truth" - people are asked a series of questions hooked up to a lie detector. Very funny questions, very personal questions. But its all for money. You need to pass the test in order to win the cash. But I do believe that tonight's show passed the entertainment value of reality show.

The contestant is married and the question is asked by an ex "If I told you that I wanted to get back together with you, would you leave your husband?" - "Do you believe that I am the man that you should be married to?" - She hesitates and uhmms and says "Well, I guess I have to be honest - I say YES."

WHAT THE HELL?! Is it worth the cash to lose your marriage? The husband looks heart broken. Obviously their marriage is over.
You could cut the tension with a knife. They were honestly losing their marriage on live television.

Oh shit - and as I watch the show as I blog. The next question is "Since your marriage have you had sexual realtions with anyone else besides your husband?" - without hesitation she says "Yes." Her husband buries his head in his hands. Pain in his eyes.

Next question "Do you believe that you are a good person?" - she says "Yes." The crowd applauds. Obviously this is an easy question.

The lie detector says "False."

This means that she loses all the money that she won to that point - and obviously her marriage.
Dumb.

Things are good here. I have ceased the NutriSystem program. It did not work with my lifestyle, I am grateful for the opportunity that I was given, because it is something that I would not have done it otherwise.

Positives of the program that I found.
-Portions were already decided for me. Which is a huge bonus. Obviously I was eating twice as much as I needed.
-Several of the entrees were tasty. I love mashed potatoes, gravy, and meats. It reminded me of growing up. And who would have thought you could eat this on a diet?
-The chocolate and granola bars that I was given were a surprise. They tasted great. And again, who would have thought you could have chocolate?
-Not having to worry about what to take for lunch at work. It was already decided for me.

The downfall of the program that I found.
-Sodium content was way too high. Migraines were a huge factor for me. I am not used to this high content. I really felt my body craving water over and above 8 glasses most days. My mother in law as well as several friends suffer from Menier' Disease and this sodium content would have been a huge no-no for them. I did miss work a few times because I could not open my eyes to the sunlight.
-My husband was kinda pouty when I made supper for him and then sat down and didn't eat with him. If family dinners are very important to you - this is not the program for you.

I am thankful for the chance that I was given, and hope that I have not disappointed ANYONE but not completing it as anticipated. I probably have put on a few pounds in the last several weeks, but I am okay with that. Life is really good right now. My husband and I are really happy - my god daughter is feeling better - work is good - friends are great - new friends are awesome - family is good - I love my birds, they make me laugh - I am just thankful for alot of things right now. 200 pounds is not a bad number and as the snow starts to melt outside I know that the numbers will go down on their own. I thank you for all your kind comments and support.

For today's smiles - my niece. The doll of the day.
And the room goes "AWWWW...."


I'm getting a new tattoo on Friday. Looking forward to that. Will post pictures for you guys. Sorry about my lack of posting, I have missed you guys!

Here's the kids. The babies are the ones with the black beaks. Momma is posing with the kids. Poppa has his butt to the camera. Ha. Thought you would like to see that they aren't aliens or Gremlins anymore.

Proof that there are angels on earth.

Tonight on TV Biggest Loser was the best reality TV I have seen in a while. I think there should be more like this. Tonight's show had the contestants AT HOME for the week, trying to find time to exercise, trying to make good decisions with food. I would love reality TV even more if it was as REAL as this. The Biggest Loser is great - but such a bubble. Who can live like that once they are outside of the house?? Loved the show tonight - it was as real as it can get.